You've slipped away..

Well Summer is over and it's like I'm starting all over.
People who have played a big part in my life have slipped away, in ways I am both happy and sad about this. I can't dwell on the people of my past anymore though, I've been doing that far too long. It's time for a new beginning and a more focused and positive me.
Although, I know I can not change parts of myself completely I do want to better myself in many ways. I want to be focused and driven in school so that my future is as bright as I've ever wanted, some of my expectations may be too high yes, but that does not mean I should cut them away and just be happy with how things are, that is no longer the person I'm going to be. My life has always consisted of me being in the backround, always overshadowed by what I thought were better people that me but I was wrong, no one is better that anyone. We are all equal, yes we're different in many ways but that most certainly does not mean we are not equal.
I refuse to be pushed around and forgotten about. If people don't like me that is perfectly fine, if they do not want to be my friend that is also fine, as it's their own decission and choice and whether they live to regret these types of decissions is entirely up to them.

I have grown so much closer to some people and drifted apart from others. The people I have drifted from will always be very close to my heart and a major part of my life but in a different way than before. I still love each of them dearly and although I do not see them as much as I would like to, things could change again but I cannot forsee the future, I will just have to wait and see what life throws at me.

The people I have grown closer to were always part of my life and I cannot express how good it is to be close to them along with new friendships made over these few months and a lovely new relationship, I am quite content with my life as of now.
Perfection in life is not the key to happiness, for me happiness is being able to let go of past, love the present, and hope for future.

This all may seem like a pile of bullshit, but I don't care.
I wanted to write my thoughts down, it has been awhile.
So for now,
Goodbye (: x

Aoibhinn O'Reilly. DATES.

Right so basically this is for your one I call my best friend because I said I'd do one for her (:

16 & a half years and we're still bestos.
We used to practically be matching at Christmas and all. That's love :)

Ok anyway back to her and our friendship.

I don't think anyone knows me as well as she does, I tell her almost everything even though she may not want to know :P but she just has to put up with me.
We've had our falling outs and stuff like that but we seem to come back stronger. No one could replace her in my life, no matter how much they try it has and never will happen. We've had plenty of people try come between us and the always fail because it's not worth losing a life long friend for a friendship that may not even last a year.

All this is really a lie. I just want lifts LOL
Love you really. Alan.

Its actually kind of strange having someone that could sit on the other end of the phone without even speaking and still know what I'm thinking or the faces I'm pulling. We have a tendency to make eachother go into pure stinky fits for no reason, we look like lunatics half the time but the good kind :)
I also think I'm the only one that understands what shes says half the time, bit of a mumbler:)
Living with her for weeks in Turkey helps.. She bashes me in my sleep.. Dont share a bed with her, just a little warning.

To sum her up in a few words..
She is the most amazing, strange creepy person I know but I still love her :)
Bestos/Cuzos 2k10.
Rarara.
xxx