hangovers.

Ok, so I clearly take after my brother when I drink.
I ramble on in "creative discusions" with adults, when really all I'm doing is talking complete shit on my opinions. God love Shauny's parents.
I then wake up the next morning in fierce pain that will of course take up my whole day, because I get awful hangovers. Never fun.
So, I finally get home and hope for some sleep, no, not gonna happen. He's clearly aware that I'm hungover, and he's tipsy, so for fun he decides to stand on my leg, then my stomach, then jump on me. Yes, we are talking about a 21year old. I was far from enjoying my Sunday.
Then my mam makes a roast. NO.
Can't hack them at all.

NEVER AGAIN.

.

Only fools play games,
we are the fools of the future.
we are winners.

struggle.

Sitting here in a heap, trying to stay awake. I don't know what's wrong with me, but there's something wrong. So sick of the constant tiredness. It's really putting me down.
And to go along with that there has been plenty happening around my house thats making me want to just leave. Wishing I was back in Turkey. I was so relaxed over ther.

And I seriously just wanna get drunk. like now. really bad.
Hopefully something exciting will come along. Everythings the same these days. I want new and different things. Getting sick of a lot of things.

I've this urge to text someone. It's been a good few months since we've talked. And as much as she let me down as a friend. I'm missing her. Don't know what to do.

I'm going to go sleep on everything. Too many thoughts. Too little energy.
x

I Want To Go Home.

Kusadasi is my home. If I could bring all the people I love from here and move them there and live there, I think I'd be the happiest person alive. Missing everyone over there. Espesially Nuri and Emradh. We had such good times with them and the rest of the lads there. But, breakfast will never be the same without Nuri, Emradh, Johnson and Sinan :) Looking forward to next year so much, even have a job lined up if I fancy it.

Finally dyed my hair, it's plum :) really happy with it. Aoibhs did a faaaab job at it .... surprisingly ;) LOL
Had blood tests done today. Hopefully they'll be the last for awhile, or else I'm seriously gonna die from a lack of blood. :S
Hopefully the weather will get better before school starts. Looking forward to haveing a day with Eimear, Megan and Amelia. Missing them sooo much:)
Gig on Friday, its been ages so I'm looking forward to that too :)
Not much else really. Too tired to write anymore...


SLEEEEEEEP.

it feels like i don't write anything anymore.

Lately I'm just not bothered writing anymore. I've been having such a good time here :) relly gonna miss it when I leave, but it has taken so much out of me. I feel like I could sleep for weeks and weeks, it's annoying feeling so worn out and yet half the time I can't sleep. It just completely does my head in. So I've a couple of hospital and doctor trips when I get home. Oh joy =/


BUT.. I'm looking forward to getting a Mr. Chans when I get home on Saturday with my brothers :) missing them quite a bit, surprisingly!