Things can only get better!

Start of Summer tomorrow at last.
It feels like this year has dragged it, there were some good bits but the majority of 4th year was pretty shit, and I'm almost certain I'd have been much better off not doing it, nothing that I can change now though.
I've 3 months to do whatever the fuck I want and then 5th year comes and it'll be study study study for me if I want to get those 555 points I need. The next two years are going to be lovely and stressful. JOY :

But anyway, I've 3 months of freedom before I have to think of that :)
Missed out on what would probably have been the best weekend of my life. I wish I had of just gone to Slamdunk. Fucking raging like. It sounded so amazing. There's always next year though so I better start saving! :)

Every year I plan so much for the Summer, and this year I actually wanna do the stuff and have a deadly few months. And no, that doesn't mena get locked all the time, it means actually doing some seriously fun stuff with some of the best people I know. I need to make a list soon.
But to start off, my parents have left me for two weeks. So the fun has already begun :)
Next step, Mini Marathon, which I have done no training for what so ever this past month, lazybones. So this week I'm doing a power week, well I hope to anyway, if not I can safely say I'm fucked but I'll do it anyway :) The t-shirts are a fantastic bright yellow : it's really not my colour.

World cup soon. Football nights are in order. Pizza + cans + football = sorted :)

Something I've learned this past week.. Stick to vodka and cider. All other alcohol is poison.

I'll write sooooon.

Peace out
x

Brave faces mean nothing.

I'm actually really getting tired of pretending.
I'm not alright. This whole shit is doing my head in and my family are too wrapped up in petty fights to even realise. To be honest, they probably make things worse.
I want to get out of here for awhile. Just fuck off for a few weeks so I don't have to see your face and sort my head out or I'm just going to break down physically and mentally.
I haven't got the energy anymore.

:(

I gave you my heart and soul, but it was never enough.

Argh. The last few months have been good and bad.

I've lost people in so many different ways and trying to be close to them is like, I don't even know. It's not what they want though. I make every effort, but it's not good enough and not what they want. I've learnt to just get on with it though, I mean things are still rough and I'll always try to rebuild things that I've lost but if I'm not good enough to be part of their life then ok. I just have given up caring, I care more about other people than myself, so it's time for a change. I don't mean I'm going to be a selfish bitch, but I need me time :) and to actually just started looking after me or else things are just going to go horribly wrong like they were a few years ago.

BUT.. On the other hand I've got one of the best people back in my life, I'm so happy we're getting close again. She's been helping me through a lot of things. She knows how I'm feeling and it's just great having her to talk to and helping her through stuff too!
Actually, I've got a lot of amazing people in my life right now, there's one or two that I'd like in it but that's just their own choice I guess. Their loss ;) haha.
Things are like ok y'know. I'd like them to be better but hey it's the summer in two weeks. I've a lot to look forward to and a lot of great people to spend it with so bring it on.

ALSO watch out for the:
Reluctant Runners at the Flora Women's Mini Marathon on June 7th jogging for the Special Olympics!
Can't wait.

More updates soon!
Peace out! x